Nevermind It Was Never Mine

Every song I listen to reminds me. I can't stop thinking but I can't keep my thoughts together. Every song I hear seems to either make me yearn for what I don't have or feel even worse because I missed my big shot. And my playlist is on shuffle. You would think that some random Sum41 song would come on, right? These feelings don't mean a thing. I don't know if I feel like I'm missing it or if I'm happy about the situation. Actually I'm definately happy. Just at the same time I'm not. Or I don't know if I should feel used and played. I do feel played though. I keep thinking about the first day. Then the day it went away. And now. And then I get lost. Nevermind; it was never mine.